Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Memorial


It has been an year since I've started blogging in this space,
as an attempt to overcome some difficulties in my personal life.
As my friends and family and some of my online readers know,
my husband J had suffered a TBI back in 2004.
Since then we both fought very hard
just to give him the time he needed
to somehow defy the odds and maybe one day
the light of his soul would shine again in his eyes.
J was an extraordinary person and I never ever gave up on him...
...till the last 17 of August...
when I finally couldn't bare any more pain,
couldn't allow no more hurting, no more mistakes...
which finally cost us his precious life.
I've considered for a long time
and decided I would keep this blog,
not only because for me is a safe space of communication
but also it revealed itself
as a therapy when I needed to quit smoking,
and provided goals for my life,
and it worked as a outlet 
for the things I would make and create.
To all my family and friends
who gave me their precious hand and shoulder to cry...
my forever THANK YOU.
To all the others who will eventually read these so sad words...
from the bottom of my heart, a thought:
enjoy,
enjoy life
every single minute as it would be the last...
I did,
and for that I have no regrets.

To J, my husband, my friend, my love...
You'll live in me for always.

3 comments:

  1. Very sorry to learn about your loss. Hopefully he's in a better world now. *hugs*

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  2. Sheza, thank you so much for your kind words, I appreciated it a lot.

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  3. I am so sorry for your loss and hope that you find comfort with you family friends and blog.
    God bless you.

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